A clear mind I rarely have anymore. Ministry, mortgage, family, articles, books, podcasts…all clutter my thoughts. At times, I cannot fall asleep for all the noise. I toss and turn, ideas and worries even interrupting my sleep.
If I’m honest, I must admit I like the fury. I always have. I am curious; my mind loves to learn. More ideas, more pressure, more everything keeps me moving and makes me feel important, but what am I missing because of this addiction? (I pose this question to you too, the reader. What are you missing?)
I know I miss peace. I miss clarity and focus. I miss depth. I miss soulfulness. And at times, I miss God. This is the real problem. I can create time for God, but I do not always create slow time for God. Relationships need slow. Growth needs slow. Soul needs slow. I don’t know that there is a way around this, but I’ve been trying to work around it for a while. Foolish me.